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K: Don't read this.
Jan. 8th, 2009 08:43 amTwo frozen samples from our awesome new donor are sitting in a tank at the clinic. Today is Day 13 of my cycle, but I'm not getting inseminated today. Everything seems to be running late or slow. My estrogen is low. My follicles are too small. My LH isn't going up. Compared to last cycle, I'm about 2 days behind where I should be.
I don't know WTF is going on. I'll be seeing the naturopath this morning, so hopefully she can shed some light on the situation and/or get things moving.
I'll get today's numbers this afternoon. If they aren't looking good -- particularly the follicle size, then I'm going to cancel the cycle. The new donor is expensive and I'm not going to waste him on an iffy cycle.
Actually, I think I do know what the problem is. The month I took off to "relax" turned into a month of indulging in behaviours that are not conducive to fertility. I ate and drank too much of the wrong stuff. I didn't exercise. I didn't practice my meditation. I got stressed out over stuff. I leaped off the wagon and rolled down the hill. I've put on weight and I feel like crap and I've had some episodes of extremely black, howling despair. If I was my ovaries, I'd tell me to feck right the hell off.
I suppose it's possible that I'm just going to ovulate later than normal, but I'm very suspicious of the way this cycle is going. The clinic was closed until January 5, so I didn't get my Day 3 bloodwork done -- no idea what my FSH was like. I have to face the fact that my body may be telling me that it's just too late for pregnancy. But I do want to have at least one more try. I want to give the new donor a chance with a natural cycle - especially since we already paid for 2 vials of sperm. And when I decide that I'm really done, I want to try another medicated cycle.
Whatever happens, the "trying to conceive" part of this process should be over by April. That will be the one-year mark with 7 or 8 IUIs under our belts. IVF isn't an option for us because my ovaries don't actually respond all that well to artificial stimulation. They'd be lucky to get 3 viable eggs out of me in a cycle and that's just not enough. Also, we don't have twelve thousand dollars.
We can't say that we didn't try.
M.
I don't know WTF is going on. I'll be seeing the naturopath this morning, so hopefully she can shed some light on the situation and/or get things moving.
I'll get today's numbers this afternoon. If they aren't looking good -- particularly the follicle size, then I'm going to cancel the cycle. The new donor is expensive and I'm not going to waste him on an iffy cycle.
Actually, I think I do know what the problem is. The month I took off to "relax" turned into a month of indulging in behaviours that are not conducive to fertility. I ate and drank too much of the wrong stuff. I didn't exercise. I didn't practice my meditation. I got stressed out over stuff. I leaped off the wagon and rolled down the hill. I've put on weight and I feel like crap and I've had some episodes of extremely black, howling despair. If I was my ovaries, I'd tell me to feck right the hell off.
I suppose it's possible that I'm just going to ovulate later than normal, but I'm very suspicious of the way this cycle is going. The clinic was closed until January 5, so I didn't get my Day 3 bloodwork done -- no idea what my FSH was like. I have to face the fact that my body may be telling me that it's just too late for pregnancy. But I do want to have at least one more try. I want to give the new donor a chance with a natural cycle - especially since we already paid for 2 vials of sperm. And when I decide that I'm really done, I want to try another medicated cycle.
Whatever happens, the "trying to conceive" part of this process should be over by April. That will be the one-year mark with 7 or 8 IUIs under our belts. IVF isn't an option for us because my ovaries don't actually respond all that well to artificial stimulation. They'd be lucky to get 3 viable eggs out of me in a cycle and that's just not enough. Also, we don't have twelve thousand dollars.
We can't say that we didn't try.
M.
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