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Here are symptoms that I do not have:

bloating, cramps, sore boobs, extreme fatigue, nausea, irritability, mood swings, frequent urination, any other alleged early pregnancy symptom

What I do have is mild heart palpitations from the progesterone. I am also issuing foul and room-clearing farts, which are likely progesterone-related.

Otherwise, nothing.

Okay, okay, a couple of little twinges in the lower abdomen, and some headaches, but that could be ANYTHING.

I do not feel in the least bit pregnant. And I'm not just saying that to try and mindfuck the fates. I don't think there's anything going on in there.

And I'd love to be able to just move on and focus on next month, but I can't get it out of my head. Especially when everytime I go to the bathroom I note that I'm wearing a pad to absorb the progesterone goo. And I'm installing said progesterone twice a day. And everytime I think about eating or drinking anything I filter it through the potentially pregnant filter. And everyone around me seems to be pregnant, including the men. And I'm hyper-aware of every twitch and flutter in my body. And the pleasantly distracting game night we planned for tomorrow is cancelled. And I can't concentrate on work. And the pregnancy test in the hall closet at home is calling me, even though it knows that it won't tell me anything I don't already know, especially when I've still got a week before my period is due. And this just sucks.

M.

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